I picked up my cap and gown yesterday.
I’m not quite sure how I felt about it. I’m stuck in this weird limbo of needing to be done with school but terrified of what comes next. When I physically held my cap and gown, there was no definable feeling. When I took it out of the package and held the Class of 2014 tassel, I can say I felt a twinge of giddiness.
Inside the package were two papers. I can’t remember what the other one was (maybe because I was so shocked by the second sheet).
It was information on how to start paying my loans back.
Are you kidding me?
I can’t even begin to think about paying back loans yet. I’m not even sure how much I have in loans! I’m pretty sure its around 40k but still. My goodness. I can tell you that my “nondescript” feelings immediately went out the door and I hit all the emotions from angry to panic to shock and back again.
I understand why its included. After graduation comes paying back your loans. The sooner you get on top of that, the better. But at the same time, I really needed a minute to breath.
I plan on continuing this post-grad and into the young professional part of my life so get ready for my journey through loan payments…yikes.